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FACEBOOK : Penny Chong
TWITTER: pennyQi
MSN: pennyqi.design@h.c

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I want to live in a world full of cliche fantasies, plus the screwed up storyline of course.
I love who I love and love is what holds me together now.
My heart has the fragile signs taped all over it.
I can make a great facade, I'm just too good that it hurts only myself in the end.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Apologies.

I'm sorry to say but, it has been more than half a year already compared to time less than a week. I'm fairly disappointed.

I told him: "Study properly...Must study properly, okay?"

I wasn't drunk or anything but I seriously mean it. But those words weren't meant for him. It was for another one. There's a standard there for you to reach, you need to understand that, whoever you are, reading this. There's always a standard for you to reach to satisfy one's heart, no matter your parents, teachers, friends, lovers, colleagues or anything. Mine's easy, your capability. I don't ask for more. That's all I need.

I'll keep doing one thing, at 12.06 every night, until I'm certain the feeling is gone.

I want to remember us as two person, who met, under pure fate and yes, that's how we met and that's the one fragment of happiness that I wish to keep.

I'm having this stupid nosebleed going on here so I better run off and get more tissues and sleep on it before I bleed out. Cross your fingers and hope that I get suffocated by my own blood and die of asphyxiation.

I never had suicidal thoughts for a long while already but it's back now, for the worse.

Of course, natural deaths are too common, suicides are overrated; how about a sad pathetic death?

I feel like taking a ride at night just cruising around. Or wearing sandals in a rainy evening, eating ice-kacang, in Camerons.

HOWEVER, let's make the 31st our one last time before we all go on our own paths and before we step into the real world ;)

Oh, first day at Brewster's? It was alright. Plus, the crews are awesome. No orders for me today though. Not the right timing.


Saturday, December 25, 2010

Drunk Kisses and Morning Whispers.


Merry Christmas people. :)

Yesterday afternoon, the GAYS gathered together again! All 6 of us, finally together after two years! Made a last minute call to get the cab and got over to McDonalds' Pengkalan.

Then later after that I took another cab straight to Kelly's place for the party that night!

One word, memorable as hell. No matter how painful and somehow how sweet it was! Then all of us slept-over at Kelly's place, all tightly packed in one room, trying to sleep. = =

Met new friends, Johnny, Yi Xuan, Yi Hui and Hon Sum. (Hon Sum, you're here because at Parade that day you didn't introduce yourself! HAHA)

But I swear, Kelly, Eberwein, Evelyn, Yee Leng, Hon Sum, Siew Jun, Sing Chee, Johnny, Yi Hui, Yi Xuan, Ah Loong & Sherilyn, craziest CHRISTMAS BUNCH EVER :)

It was amazing, something to be reminisced of and like I always say, good or bad they are all memories, that will be remembered for the rest of my life.

A few of the highlights;

SOMEONE couldn't open the red wine!
ANOTHER got stripped!
TEDDY BEAR attacks!
SIP SIP sneak-outs!
Rescue missions!
Late night calls!
Spray attacks! (which I very cleverly avoided by keeping quiet)
SOME MOSQUITOES very noisy in the morning!

If I can get a break from Brewster's, let's get together again on New Years! We should make it a promise, to gather all together every time, to have fun and forget everything but the fun!

Speaking of Brewster's, Yee Leng starting training on Wednesday ! :D Yay, the later shift, same as mine! That dude at Brewster's remembered me. Oooh. Hehe.

Bye, will edit this later, I need to sleep.

Edited it. I'm somehow glad I went. (:

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Smiley, Kitkat and Me.

Hey Seng Hoo, Priscilla, let's go scream our lungs out again. I think I need it.


I don't feel so good, I feel like throwing up every single thing. I think I'm getting sick.

Will start working at Brewster's on the 28th. Wish me luck.

I hate hate hate Smiley.

*throws up*

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I'm going to write more; short meaningless posts are getting more icky to me. (yeah, right, you're just lazy)

You know sometimes when you're in a dilemma or a problem or when you feel like the whole world's collapsing after your broken heart, people around you seem to be really annoying. For example, whatever they say seems like they're belittling your problem and the world is actually a really bright and colorful place and all that shit. Yeah, you getting what I'm saying now? Okay, if you're not, here's another example;

A: Oh, my world is so dark, I want to die and forget everything.
B: Awww, it's okay. Don't worry, it's nothing. You'll get over it soon.

You are A, and to you, what you hear B say is : "Just suck it up bitch, it's life." Well, it is most probably B's true meaning, but you're depressed and you choose to be in denial. You have the rights to because you're depressed.

Enough examples?

So, yeah, that. When you're in that kind of situation, or anything similar to that, the whole world is wrong and they NEVER felt what you're feeling at the moment. Everyone's a dipshit, everyone should die because they don't understand you.

Everyone's been there and has done that!

After the dark clouds go bye bye, you'll realize that these kind of friends who even bothered to talk to you about it, and not choose to ignore you, are the best. They make you smile in the end, even during your dilemma, making you forget about it for a while and then think positive enough to type out a post about it. :)

I love my friends.
And even though guys are clueless (they are!) I know some who cares enough to listen to me about it.
I love you guys too.

See, one meaningful post from Yours Truly.
Thank you very much and I'll see you soon.

(Oh, the layout's temporary. Will edit it soon)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Invincible Youth.


After a day out at Parade, Sya came with Mai to express their inner whacko-ness due to depression(?) HAHA. Then, like, always, we went to the field near my place. Camwhored a little and called the kid who just finished SPM out! HAHA!!! Fishie partner, Nasyim reached after a while of directions from all the direction-idiots (well, I admit, it's just me) Had fun.

We should do it more often. :)
Will post pictures from Camerons as soon as possible.

Let's spend Christmas together, shall we?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

My Heart Will Go On.




I'm back from the long hiatus. & I'm gonna post about Sya's KBOX partay yesterday!
Though it was awkward at first, it got better...screw all the formal talk and everything, we had fun! Nice meeting the guys and had a crazy finale to wrap up the whole thing with Sya and Mai!

Photographer was great ;)
Singers were entertaining! C:
Scandal couple was great :D
Drinks were too much! XD
Kpop blind-singing was DAEBAK!

We should do it more often! The guys should all come back to Ipoh someday, yep that's a good idea. We should we should.

xo,
Yours Truly.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

The Secret Identity of A High School Graduate.


Last day of school today. I'm going to skip the entire morning part since there's nothing much. Let's go straight to where we had to hug the teachers and ask for forgiveness. What touched me the most was my new BM teacher said; (translated) "Penny, I didn't see you for so long already. You have to score A+ okay!"

I almost cried when she said that... Awwwwww..

Then when I reached the end, seriously I felt like crying but no tears unfortunately. But I made the others cry though;

No matter bad memories or good, they are memories; memories created by the one and only Avicennians. So unique, even all the teachers acknowledge it! The best batch, no matter academically or personality wise! The loud and proud us will never let you teachers down. True, we don't cooperate most of the time but no matter what, we're family; the Avicennian family, the family that never breaks down no matter what.

I love you all, for all the memories during the last two years of my high school life.

First batch to graduate and yet the most unique batch~
Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends. ~Richard Bach
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning. ~Ivy Baker Priest
"Where can I find essays like yours after this?" -Pn Sushil
I didn't know she praised me in front of the Block AV class, I'm proud teacher, and really glad you think I'm that good. Thank you very much, teacher. For all the advices and support these two years!

Next, the 'Flour War'! It started with Mas with her face full of flour; she tired to hug me and get the flour all over me! Then spotted Faie with a packet of flour in her pocket, the idea of getting it all over Deq'a struck me little evil mind! HAHA! The attack troupe was Faie, Tinie and myself!!!! Target= Deq'a! Later on, the attack got from one person to another until I got flour all my hair, the inside of my clothes and all over! Curse the flour!!! But it was fun, running around chasing targets and screaming our lungs off! Except the small the fact that I almost choked on flour!

Hey, Fatin Nadira Abdul Nasser who is most probably reading this two hours later as asked, I'll miss you so much! We might not get the chance to meet up so often anymore but if you need me, I'll be a phone call away, as promised. Do your absolute best in everything! Pay attention in class! Haha. Miss us a lot okay!! Take care of yourself. Jadilah senior yang sempoi macam Penny :D

To all my juniors, good luck in life, choose your course package carefully so that you won't regret later. Senior sempoi signing off~

That's all from Yours Truly, won't be updating until another twenty days.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Reason to live by.


If you continue to act like this, I'm sorry pal. So not worth it. I expect a friend to at least be there, that's all. You don't need to do all sorts of extravagant unnecessary things for me but if you're like that; might as well as if I don't exist, should I care? Do you want me to care? I used to know how to make you smile no matter what but my existence, now, does it not matter anymore to you? So, there goes; good bye.

I, for the umpteenth time, wish life could be that easy.

A glass of alcohol or two will never make one feel better, that's a fact.

I don't feel the feeling I felt when it was the last day of school two years back. There's no longing feeling, the feeling of having to depart from friends or the daily short period of happiness for 6 hours every five days of a week. Maybe because the feeling went with them two years ago.

Life is so unpredictable, I feel like I should really get a fling sometimes.

Life is so dull, I wish to throw paint right at it in the face.

Life is so boring nowadays, there's no meaning to do anything, anymore.

No, I'm not emo (okay, maybe slightly but it's all because of the rain) but I'm simply ranting my thoughts here, in this abandoned blog. *sweeps away web*

Ah, life. Let's go, read some fiction, shall we?

Truth or Dares and Kiss on Cheeks.

Hey there.

Just want to let you guys know, my camera phone has 'passed away' so no latest pictures, just words from today onwards. Gosh, how I loved that phone, that five year old phone.

On a happier worse note, the Internet connection at home is screwed, like totally screwed because it gets disconnected and reconnected again and again. Very annoying. So if I don't reply you in Facebook, it means I'm using the phone and twitter is easier to log into; sorry.

Honestly, like any candidates out there, I can't wait for SPM to end. Just end already, even though the future is still blurry to me but SPM is a phase I can't wait to get over with!

Then, maybe get a job so that I can go to college. That, is, so, sad. But that, unfortunately, is life.

Had fun last night and drunk ranting with my MSN buddy was fun. So cute!
'Anyways, can I go sleep now?' Seriously, who does 'cute' anymore.

Wish me luck in life.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

JEDA.

Jeda- pause(noun) : a short period of inaction; temporary stop, break, or rest, as in speaking or reading; hesitation; interruption; delay.



Pictures from the same day but apparently Sya changed her clothes too many times! Hairstyle too.

The day started off with waking up a tad too late so Yours Truly had to run around the house with cracked heels trying to get ready before Mai reach the house. Forgotten to put on a plaster then we left the house. Sya called when I was looking for my flats(I left them in the CRV) and I lied, saying I had to go to a workshop, then right after hanging up, she called Mai who was just right in front of me. Mai lied and said, she's on the motor on her way. Haha.

When we reached, Adib miraculously knew we reached and told Sya to close her eyes and brought her to us, Sya almost knocked me down when she came to hug me. = =

She was getting ready for her performance and we walked around, checking out the exhibitions. We met Nasyim, Junior, Nicholas, Ja Syu, Deanna and everybody! Haha. Later on, Mai, Adib and I saved the day! We helped out with the Zapin performance girls, Yours Truly pricked her finger more than twice.

Became a P.A. for Sya!

Started having slight sore throat before leaving to JJ. We reached there and ate lunch at Secret Recipe. Havoc but the two guys (Ansari & Syafiq a.k.a. Peya) were so quiet, it felt like they were sitting at a different table. Started the whole JEDA convo when Sya left, so fun! AT FIRST, that is, because Nasyim teamed with Mai. = = Fun gone right there right then.

The guys shopped, I suck at guy wear shopping.

Mai and I went and did a bit of our own shopping. Met up with the guys and Sya(who returned again) at Big Apple. Then everything happened! (That sounds so dramatic, well it was, a part of it that is) Partly, all we did was block traffic, standing in the middle discussing what we should do, contemplating, cracking jokes and end up without any outcome. Yep, Yours Truly rolled her eyes more than once to that.

Eventually, we went home without watching any movies or K-boxing.

Hung out at Sya's place and talked.

Yours Truly came home with more cracked heels, sore throat and really sore toe. Ugh. So tired. Going off, I think I'll die if I continue staying up till so late.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

A day at the playground!



Ah, like I twitted, I actually wanted to fill this post with pictures, like totally spam this post but since Tinie didn't give me the cable for her camera, no pictures. Awwwww. Such a bummer.

Well, I got hit by the two stupid basketballs! First, when Mai and I were on the slide thing and this kid threw the ball around everywhere! So yeah, it hit my back. And the second one was when Mai and I were walking on the reflexology paths; there were dudes playing basketball at the court near the path. Yours Truly was walking backwards, laughing at Mai and cheering her to keep walking when suddenly the ball went right at my back, AGAIN! I think I'll fail both my kidneys like that. First the right, then the left, do I look like a bullseye board to you?

Hanson, Jessica and my cousin sister-in-law came and joined us! Hee, with Kitson also after that, took more pictures, called Tinie for help when her camera started vibrating like crazy, camwhored and did almost every thing possible at the playground. It was great! Really amazing! :)

We walked home and Mai hung out at my very-not-clean room; we chatted like we would at Sya's house or at Resh's ! Aww, I miss that.

No pictures, so sad, nothing to describe! HAHA. So I'm going to go off now, tired already, have been active the whole day! Oh!

RESHWEEN!!! OMG OMG OMG! ADAM LAMBERT! She's at the concert right now dancing and singing her ass off for sure!

And and! SAENGIL CHUKHA(생일축하) AZURA!! I sang to her 5 times in 5 different languages!!! I'm so cool! She's the coolest person I know! So cool and chill! Azura is also the greatest monitor ever!!

Signing off.

Give someone a hug today, one person needs an average of 8 hugs per day!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

You spin my head right round.

Phew, finally Blogspot is working today.

I just want to say:

- Singing with Tinie in class is awesome and stress relieving.
- I'll be starting the Sebastian and Alois drawing really soon. These few weeks have been really hectic. No rest even on weekends. Soon. The drawing will come soon.
- I'm trying to earn money, need my drawing expertise? XD Give me a call.
- That's all, nothing much, really. So I'll post pictures :)


Small sized but totally violent! HAHA.

Super cute brace face of mine! She's mine! Rawrrr, don't be jealous R.E.D.

That's all from me, nothing else to update. Bye.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Seventeen Birthday Candles.

Happy Birthday to me! :)

Went out with Sya and Mai on Sunday for a pre-celebration since this whole week Mai and I have to stayback to retake our trial papers.

Got Aiden and Ellie from the two


I talk to Aiden, he's fun, he's a fun pink whale plushie. And Aiden is of course named after Donghae, our Fishy ;)



Before that, Yours Truly had some fro-yo courtesy of Sya. Later then we went to K-Box for some karaoke session. If you were there, it would be so embarrassing and awkward for you to watch! The two literally sang their heads off! Then we took a cab back to Sya's place; we hung out, talked about what we talk about, then Mai 'sent' me home.

28th SEPTEMBER 2010.
Woke up to a lot of texts wishing me 'Happy Birthday' and all, great start.
When I went to school, I didn't say a thing and no one remembered until one of them wished me, Pitha's reaction was hilarious! Chucky passed me a card from an anonymous sender, no signature no nothing, until I saw the word 'mint ice cream' then I knew it was Ein. I like how we have something to remind each other of each other. :) I got myself two classes singing me the 'Happy Birthday' song and I was seriously awed. Joanne and Shireen baby came up to my class just to see me to wish me. So many hugs and flying kisses. Zura even gave me the honor to greet the teacher! HAHA!

I can't express my gratitude enough, 100+ wishes on Facebook(messages and wall comments) least expected wishes and everything. Today was nice, really nice.

And Faie Freak vandalized my arm by doing this:


I didn't have to talk, just show them this they'll automatically remember it's my birthday and wish me! HAHA. Iloveyou Faie

Usually I don't celebrate my birthday, but surprisingly, today my sister, Jaycee came home from tuition with a cake! Black forest cake! ;) HAHA, that ass, I woke up this morning and I saw a handmade card on her table already but it didn't have her signature so I'm not going to take it! HAHA. Sign it, Joanne Chong, I know you're reading this!

Pornstar even got a pair of earrings from Hazerra hun. (Pornstar's my nickname from her, I honestly have no idea why) Today was great, I have 9 minutes left before I make my wish and go to sleep, I hear that it works :) Hee.

Ah, I'd also like to wish three other people a Happy Birthday besides myself!

ALIAH AMIRAH
who was born at 8.18 in the morning while I 8.16 at night.

Carmen Lai

&& SHIN DONGHEE!!!
Saengil Chukha Hamnida~

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Mobile Posting 101.

Nah, it's not any tutorial to teach you guys how to blog online. I'm posting from my phone that's all(omg,my first time!). I got my phone back this morning when I went back to the old house and the battery died. I searched high and low finding for a charger, luckily I found one and when I turned on my phone: 54 missed calls and 12 text messages! What a shocker, to me at least. HAHA.

So sorry guys, for not answering the phone and not replying your messages. It happens all the time, I don't know why but whenever it's the holidays, my phone privileges seem to go whacky and I end up losing all the connections with the outside world. People won't be able to reach me during that time at all. A curse I tell you. =_=

I'm on my way to my tuition now and practically freezing to death right now. That's all, a short update from Yours Truly.

I moved back people! No Internet except the phone which sucks actually because my fingers are cramping right now.

Bye. :)

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Oh! My Lady


Since Mommy let our computer fella handle the Internet issue and all, the Internet in the Kledang house is still running :) Hence, Yours Truly downloaded a whole bunch of clips and watched Oh! My Lady. 10 more episodes to go since I'm not downloading it.

Moving is such a hassle and I was even woken up by Daddy at 12am to go to the new house to unpack my things and put them in the cupboard. Then we got home 2hours later, add one hour to the journey back home. It was crazy but at least now the few things I'll need to unpack later is my notebook and accessories' case. Ah! Some dude broke my full length mirror! WTH! May God bless him during his 7 years of bad luck period.

Did I mention the new room's pink, really pink but luckily the dark colored furniture balanced out the pink and it looks quite nice, I've got to say. My keyboard lies right beside me and now I'm finding a place to put the notebook. Where oh where.

I'll post pictures once I stop being so lazy and addicted to Oh! My Lady. HAHA! The only reason why I posted is because of the drama, really. HAHA. To spread the awesomeness, you see. :) For a 31-year old, Chae-rim(actress on the left) is really pretty. Needless to say, Siwon is hot with his chocolate abs(I should stop here, I'm not fan-girling for Jaycee here).

If you're too lazy to watch or isn't sure if you want to watch, just read the recaps here.

The two out of three reasons why I watch it :)

Another reason is that it's just too cute, it's all about the cute factor in this drama ♥

Ah, this is my most successful DA submission with 746 downloads. Lee Donghae, most people's bias. It's true. HAHA.

Okay, I'm leaving to watch more of the cutesy drama, bye.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Let's Just Fall in Love Again

So this will be my last post before I get any Internet connection after I move back to G.R. It's seven-thirty in the morning right now, Mom's out to buy breakfast. I loaded a whole CRV-full amount of things but there are still tonnes left, especially things from my room! I realize I have too many clothes and shorts and books and DVDs and electronic devices (notebook, PSP, radio, camera, phones, headphones and earphones, chargers for respective things and pendrives and mem. cards) then the gigantic hula-hoop. Facepalm-ing myself right now. OTL

Like I said, Mom's out, so I'm sneaking myself some Internet time to type this and download some Empire Kids episodes before the Internet's officially gone, I'm going to do some revision after I move but I will die without any entertainment, TV does not entertain me that much anymore, well, except the upcoming new season of Criminal Minds :)

Oh, I have this new favorite drink; milk! Like really milk! Drank two days in a row, I feel fairer. HAHA! Too late to drink for any improvement height-wise but it's good for your bones and teeth no matter what age you're at right? Right?

Jaycee's on the mattress on the floor beside me right now, she won't budge at all. Her alarm went off three times to David Castro's 'Let's Just Fall in Love Again'. She reaches her phone and presses the snooze button and goes off to sleep again. I'll need to shout at her later, but not now, I need some peace and quiet.

And...

Aminah would like to wish all her Muslim friends a
HAPPY AIDILFITRI!!
BIG time greetings to all of you out there! I want Raya cookies!

May peace be upon you :)
(Jawab salam, jangan tak jawab. hehe)

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Do you believe in magic?

Oh snap! I just remembered (since Prusho reminded me) I write my essays like crazy so I ended up with seven pages for my trials paper. Since we need to retake all our exam papers, am I suppose to write another seven pages worth of essay?! I don't memorize my essays so it's kinda hard for me to rewrite the entire thing! It will definitely be a different story then and my right wrist has been in pain since last month I don't think I can write that long anymore. Well, that's depressing. What a depressing thought. I don't want to repeat my English paper or my Arts paper! Dayum! I can't recreate original pieces of mine! Ah, this is so frustrating.

I've been packing my things into boxes and only the manga/anime section took up one whole box! Where to put my novels and dictionaries? And those textbooks, workbooks- I can't wait for school to be over! I suppose I'm lucky I didn't take out the Detective Conan's out of the box since the last move, they're still perfectly organized in the box in my cupboard. HAHA!

I can't wait to move, staying in Kledang is as depressing as having to retake my English paper!(GOD NO!)

Yours Truly will not be online for three weeks or more after this because we all know how slow TM works and how long it takes for the Internet to start running again.

Take care and I love you~

Monday, August 30, 2010

Polaroids.


Had fun editing this picture, I was bored and really hungry. Grr. And now I'm tired, so I'm off people.

Yours Truly is moving on the 13th next month, back to where everyone is at, G.Rapat. :)
Will see you guys around yeah.

xo.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Fictitious Lifestyles.

Went to the mall today with Jaycee and Kitson while Mommy went to check the furnitures that we ordered :) Actually managed to buy Aunty's t-shirt even though it's a different one, but it's cute so I hope she'll like it. I bought myself one also! A hooded top. Found Detective Conan Volume 68! Go me! Bought Kuroshitsuji OVA too, haha! And E-pop, just because it had Hangeng's poster. Then a manga to indulge and some revision books :)

This manga.

Detective Conan Volume 68 !

Kuroshitsuji OVA

This poster :)

Oh well I'm too lazy to take a picture of the top I bought. Will mention it somehow in the future if I post the picture.

It was exhausting but not as exhausting as copy pasting live updates of Super Show 3 that was going on in Qingdao. Had fun though because it's an ELF thing to do :D

That was my day, oh, keeping in touch doesn't mean calling or texting every single day, if your friendship is like ours (RPS*), you can actually not speak to each other for months and still now things about each other and catch up on everything in each other's lives. We are special that way and I believe, if the three of us are to be scattered all around the world, we'll be the best of friends. Be mature a bit la you immature whiny people, thankyouverymuch. :)

*God no, not the school. HAHA.

Take care, loveyou, goodnight.


Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Family Guy and Addmaths.


I drew this last night for Andrea :


Will draw this soon, I find it too intriguing, a bleeding Xerxes Break. I love youuuu.


I'm going to drown in Addmaths now, thankyouverymuchandgoodbye.

xo.

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Working on this(drew this during Chemistry paper); processing, lining in Photoshop.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Content.

Now I'm at home, on Jaycee's computer, downloading EHB(Explorations of the Human Body starring Super Junior), reading Kuroshitsuji online, reading Kpop news online, squealing that The Gazette's 'Shiver' is the opening song for Kuroshitsuji II, contemplating if I should make myself something to eat, typing this and jotting down things to buy for the next visit to the mall this weekend.

Later on, I'll go read some Chemistry for tomorrow.

Ooh! One episode of EHB is done. Heee.
7 down, 6 more to go. =_=

I think I found the picture to draw for Andrea. Haha. I'm not sure, it's a B&W though. I'm too lazy to color it.

Bye.

Bye.

Will be back next week, stay tuned. (so lame)

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Looked up this because my elbows got really dry due to studying(!) because my elbows are propped up all the time and friction, your friend and enemy, made Yours Truly's elbows dark and icky.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

10 Random Facts About Me


1. I think I have an absolute horrible temper but I keep it in well until...I get lack of sleep, I explode.
2. I have more than 100 pictures of myself in my phone, from three years back. Most of them are quite random and really uses up a lot of my phone memory but I'm too lazy to delete them.
3. I can watch Idol variety shows until the next morning and do the same the next night.
4. I read fan-fictions before English tests so that I can write the next day, I get inspired that way.
5. The rain and horror movies inspire my fashion sketches.
6. I love white, red and black. (THAT was random!)
7. I mix peanut butter, chili sauce, scrambled eggs with crackers! That's also when I have all the ingredients
8. I cannot go to sleep when the lights are on or when it's noisy but if I'm already asleep, turn on all the lights and/or bang the pots and pans near me, I won't wake up. :)
9. I hate answering phone calls.
10. I've always wanted an elder brother :(
*11. I think I have mild ADHD/ short attention span. All it took was three seconds to stare at the screen and then I skipped to doing something else, I came back three hours later to finish this.

xoxo

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Cranky Penny.


Yes, I get all cranky and bitchy sometimes. Those times are when I'm sleepy or when I'm bored. No, I don't get cranky when I'm hungry; I get extremely loud and annoying to my siblings (only my siblings) So yesterday, of course I was cranky, I didn't sleep for 24hours and headed straight to school, my Monday morning was crazy but whatever came out from my mouth was the dead honest truth! This shows how much I keep inside myself without leashing out at you guys. Plus, having contact lenses that threatens to come right out every time you blink is annoying.

Then when I got into the car, I fell asleep right away, seriously tuning out everything around me. I was blur I tell you, blur until I lost my rainbow barbell!!!!! Then when I got home, I collapsed in bed right away, screaming and shouting at no one in particular in the process because I couldn't find my contact lens case.

Missed school because Mom had to help at the funeral.

Sign,
Yours Truly.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Life, unexpected.

Sorry Tinie and Deq'a, I have to cancel tomorrow's shopping! I really wanted to go, Tinieknows how excited I am, she is too! Sorry guys. ;(

Life is short. I'm not joking, it is short, you'll never know what will happen the very next minute; maybe a nearby charger goes wild and electrocutes you? Just this morning Mom called my cousin and then when Dad came to pick me up, he told me my aunt passed away... Rest in peace, 大姨. I remember that I saw her earlier this year, she was already diagnosed with cancer, all of us knew but she was all smiles when she came to our place. Her laugh was very warm, a contagious laugh that made me and all my cousins laugh along. She was all well but now she's gone.

Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you will die today.

You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

To my uncle and cousins.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

The Last Airbender

I must, start with the RM8 Issue that happened between me and an anon person. It went like this;
So, I collected the tickets I reserved the night before, not knowing how much it cost. The lady asked me for RM16, if divided with 2, RM8 per person. Then, the culprit(anon) arrived, I informed that he/she was to pay me RM8, he/she agreed and told that he/she will pay later. Later on, I borrowed from her/him RM8 because I needed something, he/she hesitated but lent me the money in the end. It was the end of the day when this happened:

A(Anon): Pay me back RM8
P(Yours Truly): What are you trying to say, you owe me RM8, then I borrowed RM8 from you, meaning I don't owe you any money at all, you're just paying your debt by borrowing me the RM8.
A: No, I want that RM8.
P: *explained the calculations, screaming*
A: *confused*
P: *demonstrated, took RM8 out and reenacted the whole borrowing and lending*
A: *not satisfied*
P: *pissed off*
A: *gave up*
P: Ugh, I'm posting this!

Let me tell you, the neighbors probably thought I was out of my mind, hollering and yelling the explanations more than once. I almost pulled out all my hair, I was that frustrated how he/she didn't understand what I was saying!

The Last Airbender was okay, not as awesome as I thought it would be, should be.. I love action packed movies(Yes, I'm serious) so I'm not that satisfied with the fights in the movie BUT, the effects, awesome! :D There's a sequel coming soon, most probably since the Avatar Gang didn't find Toph yet. Rather sad that Jackson Rathbone is the main reason why they are watching the movie though. :( He is hot but, like, seriously?!

Yours Truly bought Super Junior's 4jib Version C(repackaged)!! BONAMANA 미인아
And she got herself loads of Super Junior posters!

So now,
Super Junior Fanfiction Mania
&& multiple Star King episodes with Suju and SHINee.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Imissyousomuch.com


Reshween Maan was back in Ipoh for the weekends!
Reshmaan in the house!

McDelivery via cab all the way to her Masi's house :)
Then took the cab home~
That was my weekend, how was yours? HAHA.

Yours Truly have been reading fanfic for a few days already, cure me! Make me study!! Grrawrr.

Now, I'm going to read up the moral values for the moral test tomorrow. :) First step! Firssssttt step.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Are you in the well?

This is dedicated to Leong Kexin(Jaycee's friend) who is very much afraid of me because of my tongue piercing. So here's a latest picture of me with the piercing; the barbell I wore that day was colorful, you know! :)

And an anonymous friend of Jaycee thinks that I'm sweet. Anonymous friend of Jaycee, thank you, that was really nice of you to say such a thing :D

I'm much better now, I lost weight though, my pinafore got visibly looser. Hmmm, free diet plan from sick and everything I guess. HAHA.

The entire day in school was spent with Deq'a and Lily. Luckily Deq'a got me out from the line, if not I would have lost a few toes, frozen from the stupid humongous fan!

Then we talked and talked and then Dayah(twink twink) joined us, then left us, then we walked to class, took my bag, time to go home.

Fatin Nadira Abdul Nasser, you like the sun so much is it?! So annoying okay that I had to stand under the sun with you. But, luckily she understood the princess-y me and got us out and into shadier places before I go crazy all the time. I love you laaaaa. (:

Just before that, we met Atiqah Lott near the field, I called her, she looked at me then walked straight to me, a dissatisfying look on her face. I told her, "Smile a bit." She did and it made my day. Thanks, girl. :)

Faiqah Yasin, I'm not no freako no no, you're the freak and I'm the sane one always pulling you back to reality!

Short, because I'm tired.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Picture-less.

After three days of sleepless nights, aches, fever, coughs and pain every single time I breathe, Yours Truly is back and posting. Not fully recovered but from the way I'm speaking/typing, you can see/read that I'm better(I didn't even have the energy to talk for days)

Seriously, this time, it's the worst time ever, I can't taste anything; even the air tastes bad! How is that even possible. My lips tingles and every time I move, it hurts, as if an organ will fall out of place. That's how bad it feels like.

Halfway typing this, Chucky called, and I realized how slow I spoke, taking deep breaths after every syllable to get the word out but in the end I'd end up with a cough, because I was out of breath. Sorry Chucky, for the un-fun convo.

If dying means suffering the way I am suffering right now, might as well kill me right now or don't even think about coming near me, Death. (Except you, Remo, my Hottie Reaper.)


I can't help but to feel awful that I broke someone's heart.
Maybe me getting sick is the punishment? The guilt eating me up?

Now my chest hurts. :(

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Pathogens gone wild.

Is sick and totally sun-burnt. Where are me aspirins?

There's hope and expectations to you when you come to school. I appreciate that they're for me. Really, I do. But, I'm nice to almost everyone, those I know, those I talk to. I'm sorry I gave you any false hope and happiness, that meant more than a friend's sincere wish of wellness, to you. The love you're describing for me, it's different. My love for you is never more than love for a friend, a younger sister. I'm so sorry the smile I gave you meant the strength for you to go on. I don't know how to say it but I'm not into you the way you are into me. I suck at being mean, so I'm just going to treat you the way like before but I want you to know that there's a line that you shouldn't cross.

Sorry for the misunderstandings.

This might sound delirious and totally mean(because me being nice means flirting) but I just want to get this out. I didn't want to at first but I feel awful for leading you to a false hope. I'm really glad, you like me but I don't feel the same. I like you of course, but not the same kind of like. Okay?

No matter what, I'll always be there to guide you if you need me. I'll continue to give you the strength you need, no matter what.

Call me a bitch for doing this but I'd fell more like a bitch if I didn't. Yeah, it hurts. Sorry.

I most probably just lost a friend. :(


Saturday, July 24, 2010

Stars, Hearts and Polka Dots

I need some sleep.

The name tags are done, tears had to fall to get my sister's attention to WAKE UP and tell me where she put the hole puncher!

Off to school, will post later :)
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Lady Gaga shades in the house! BGP!

Director and Props Manager.

Lyn 啊斯林.I don't think I've shown her picture yet, so here's one! In the stuffy tent. I bet she knew I was taking her picture! HAHA. She was looking.
The not-feeling-so-well Lyn, the hungry Mai, the one trying to crack a joke Tia.

Under the shade :)

I'm back.

I'll talk about this morning's theater later because it'd be better with pictures from Tinie and Atikah.

So, the first thing in the morning was of course getting to school. I got there and passed the name tags to Amy and Yus. Later on the others started to arrived and we went to the hall. Met with Lyn and the other cadet girls. Passed them their name tags also. Then helped Lyn with her beret and uniform while I myself played with Wai Yaen's headgear!

Then saw Dayah so I did the peace-wiggly thing with her! ;D So cute! HAHA.

Was busy running around to the hall and to the field because of theater and I simply couldn't make myself stay in one place for too long. I can die ._.

After theater, Yours Truly waltzed(not that gracefully) to the field to join the others. Had an encounter with Zul. Then there was treating Yoke Jen and Shireen AND Mimi, taking pictures with Sivagamy and many more people, I don't really remember. HAHA. Sorry. BUT I STILL WANT THE PICTURES. Later on I saw Kak Fatin! :) Talked to her for a bit and then wandered off again, OH, had an awesome 'sighting' with Qiela!! Bella and Tun came ! woots!

Then, someone made an announcement and seriously made me blush.

After all those, had a stroll, an aimless stroll out of boredom, with Lyn. She was sick and refused to get out of the stuffy tent, I had to pull her out! HAHA. The arm in arm stroll was filled with tease and random 'huh's and 'hah's because the PA system was too loud and she whispers most of the time! =.= The funny part was whenever the juniors tried to sell things to her, she would ask if the food's allowed. I shook my head more than a thousand times that morning/afternoon. We stopped by a really 'strategic' spot under the tree because she was tired. Then without noticing, time flew and it was time to go back.

Mai called all the Theater girls to go to the backstage to clean the things and have a little heartfelt appreciation kinda talk. I ended up tearing a little when Mai thanked me. I'm awed and really awed. ILOVEYOUHUN :) I think I know what you're talking about, kiddo.

Unlimited thank you's to :
Atiqah Lott for carrying the hamper and doing whatever I tell you to. Plus, the whispering just for fun was FUN. She's a ball of laughter and cheesy grins!
Nadhirah for helping with the props and suggesting the help!
Fara, Athirah & friends(sorry I don't remember all of your names, but I know your faces laaa) for all sweeping, carrying, running around helping the costumes, microphones and calling me 'Kak Penny' all the time. :) Very cuteeee.
Tia for bringing the random sweetness and cuteness !
Wan Teh for watching the 'kubur' ! HAHA. She calls me 'senior' all the time.
Atikah for helping props also!
Sheau Ching for helping around, buying 100plus for me(for Lyn)
Wan Mei for replacing me to take the award, "you're carrying my name, don't trip!"
Vasantha & Uges for helping out with the decoration!
All the 5Avicennians for being Avicennians! :)
Yoke Jen for buying me drinks and then taking walks with me. Sorry I ditched halfway. ;p
Yoke Ching for the 'special' gift

I had a great time, even though I didn't get to spend it with my Gay Bunnehs + Gay Manager(Deq'a), it was an experience worth remembering for the rest of my life!

Who would have thought that drama, hot suns and strolls could be that much of fun !

I feel really loved today and I love it!

Yes, I melt that easily.

I respect and love those who respects! So yes, I respect and love all my prop girls(this includes Fara and the form 3 girls), plus Nadhirah, Atiqah Lott(wait, she hasn't called my name yet, not even once!She usually taps my shoulder or gets my attention by waving), Tia, Sabrina 'Kiddo', 'Mydin'.

I got darker, times two! The stroll with Lyn did it all ._.

Lyn, dengar cakap Miss! :) A tiny shard of my heart fell off when you told me you're sick. Don't do that!

Oh, I think I caught Lyn's virus or is it the sun working its way to my brain, causing me this crappy headache. Must.Go.Get.Vitamin.Bye.

"I'm scared next year you won't be here already so want to take picture with you." Ooi Peng said that.