FACEBOOK : Penny Chong
TWITTER: pennyQi
MSN: pennyqi.design@h.c

Shoutouts ♥

I want to live in a world full of cliche fantasies, plus the screwed up storyline of course.
I love who I love and love is what holds me together now.
My heart has the fragile signs taped all over it.
I can make a great facade, I'm just too good that it hurts only myself in the end.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010


I'm sorry to say but, it has been more than half a year already compared to time less than a week. I'm fairly disappointed.

I told him: "Study properly...Must study properly, okay?"

I wasn't drunk or anything but I seriously mean it. But those words weren't meant for him. It was for another one. There's a standard there for you to reach, you need to understand that, whoever you are, reading this. There's always a standard for you to reach to satisfy one's heart, no matter your parents, teachers, friends, lovers, colleagues or anything. Mine's easy, your capability. I don't ask for more. That's all I need.

I'll keep doing one thing, at 12.06 every night, until I'm certain the feeling is gone.

I want to remember us as two person, who met, under pure fate and yes, that's how we met and that's the one fragment of happiness that I wish to keep.

I'm having this stupid nosebleed going on here so I better run off and get more tissues and sleep on it before I bleed out. Cross your fingers and hope that I get suffocated by my own blood and die of asphyxiation.

I never had suicidal thoughts for a long while already but it's back now, for the worse.

Of course, natural deaths are too common, suicides are overrated; how about a sad pathetic death?

I feel like taking a ride at night just cruising around. Or wearing sandals in a rainy evening, eating ice-kacang, in Camerons.

HOWEVER, let's make the 31st our one last time before we all go on our own paths and before we step into the real world ;)

Oh, first day at Brewster's? It was alright. Plus, the crews are awesome. No orders for me today though. Not the right timing.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Drunk Kisses and Morning Whispers.

Merry Christmas people. :)

Yesterday afternoon, the GAYS gathered together again! All 6 of us, finally together after two years! Made a last minute call to get the cab and got over to McDonalds' Pengkalan.

Then later after that I took another cab straight to Kelly's place for the party that night!

One word, memorable as hell. No matter how painful and somehow how sweet it was! Then all of us slept-over at Kelly's place, all tightly packed in one room, trying to sleep. = =

Met new friends, Johnny, Yi Xuan, Yi Hui and Hon Sum. (Hon Sum, you're here because at Parade that day you didn't introduce yourself! HAHA)

But I swear, Kelly, Eberwein, Evelyn, Yee Leng, Hon Sum, Siew Jun, Sing Chee, Johnny, Yi Hui, Yi Xuan, Ah Loong & Sherilyn, craziest CHRISTMAS BUNCH EVER :)

It was amazing, something to be reminisced of and like I always say, good or bad they are all memories, that will be remembered for the rest of my life.

A few of the highlights;

SOMEONE couldn't open the red wine!
ANOTHER got stripped!
TEDDY BEAR attacks!
SIP SIP sneak-outs!
Rescue missions!
Late night calls!
Spray attacks! (which I very cleverly avoided by keeping quiet)
SOME MOSQUITOES very noisy in the morning!

If I can get a break from Brewster's, let's get together again on New Years! We should make it a promise, to gather all together every time, to have fun and forget everything but the fun!

Speaking of Brewster's, Yee Leng starting training on Wednesday ! :D Yay, the later shift, same as mine! That dude at Brewster's remembered me. Oooh. Hehe.

Bye, will edit this later, I need to sleep.

Edited it. I'm somehow glad I went. (:

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Smiley, Kitkat and Me.

Hey Seng Hoo, Priscilla, let's go scream our lungs out again. I think I need it.

I don't feel so good, I feel like throwing up every single thing. I think I'm getting sick.

Will start working at Brewster's on the 28th. Wish me luck.

I hate hate hate Smiley.

*throws up*


I'm going to write more; short meaningless posts are getting more icky to me. (yeah, right, you're just lazy)

You know sometimes when you're in a dilemma or a problem or when you feel like the whole world's collapsing after your broken heart, people around you seem to be really annoying. For example, whatever they say seems like they're belittling your problem and the world is actually a really bright and colorful place and all that shit. Yeah, you getting what I'm saying now? Okay, if you're not, here's another example;

A: Oh, my world is so dark, I want to die and forget everything.
B: Awww, it's okay. Don't worry, it's nothing. You'll get over it soon.

You are A, and to you, what you hear B say is : "Just suck it up bitch, it's life." Well, it is most probably B's true meaning, but you're depressed and you choose to be in denial. You have the rights to because you're depressed.

Enough examples?

So, yeah, that. When you're in that kind of situation, or anything similar to that, the whole world is wrong and they NEVER felt what you're feeling at the moment. Everyone's a dipshit, everyone should die because they don't understand you.

Everyone's been there and has done that!

After the dark clouds go bye bye, you'll realize that these kind of friends who even bothered to talk to you about it, and not choose to ignore you, are the best. They make you smile in the end, even during your dilemma, making you forget about it for a while and then think positive enough to type out a post about it. :)

I love my friends.
And even though guys are clueless (they are!) I know some who cares enough to listen to me about it.
I love you guys too.

See, one meaningful post from Yours Truly.
Thank you very much and I'll see you soon.

(Oh, the layout's temporary. Will edit it soon)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Invincible Youth.

After a day out at Parade, Sya came with Mai to express their inner whacko-ness due to depression(?) HAHA. Then, like, always, we went to the field near my place. Camwhored a little and called the kid who just finished SPM out! HAHA!!! Fishie partner, Nasyim reached after a while of directions from all the direction-idiots (well, I admit, it's just me) Had fun.

We should do it more often. :)
Will post pictures from Camerons as soon as possible.

Let's spend Christmas together, shall we?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

My Heart Will Go On.

I'm back from the long hiatus. & I'm gonna post about Sya's KBOX partay yesterday!
Though it was awkward at first, it got better...screw all the formal talk and everything, we had fun! Nice meeting the guys and had a crazy finale to wrap up the whole thing with Sya and Mai!

Photographer was great ;)
Singers were entertaining! C:
Scandal couple was great :D
Drinks were too much! XD
Kpop blind-singing was DAEBAK!

We should do it more often! The guys should all come back to Ipoh someday, yep that's a good idea. We should we should.

Yours Truly.